《 忙 》

前天，
无意中打开了电脑里的相簿，
看着数以千计的照片，
五年前到今年，
从中学到现在，
霎那间，
一股感触涌上心头，
眼泪开始在眼眶里打转。

才发现，
有好一段日子，
我都没有联络这些朋友了。
随之，
我拨了一通电话给一位好朋友，
起初还担心不知道该聊些什么，
直到听到她那熟悉的声音，
心顿时觉得很温暖，
然后就开始聊些有的没的，
原来彼此还是有聊不完的话题，
这种感觉真好。


今年学期一开，
我就忙得不可开交，
甚至有时候连星期六都得上课，
当下的我深切地领悟到时间不够用。
至于朋友们，
都因为各自的忙，
很难才可以碰面。
哪怕要挤出那么一点点时间都恐怕难如登天。

我怀念以前的生活，
厌倦现在每天读书的生活。
但我别无选择，
唯有学会去接受。
人生啊！

P.S.好了，不多写了，明天还得六点半起床，晚安，我的朋友们，期待往后可以和你们叙一叙。

[ 梦醒时分 ]

00：00 22.01.2010
《忆》 梦醒的时分。

在《忆》沉睡的日子里，
那些不开心的事情，
也随之沉淀。

《忆》梦醒后，
将会保持它一贯的风格。
神秘的黑色作为背景颜色，
忧郁的灰色文字，
和那些让人看后似懂非懂的文章。
唯一改变的，
是写《忆》时的心境。

《 120909 》

１２０９０９

这个部落格诞生的一周年，

他离开这里的第一年，

原来，

这一切都过了很久。

[ =( ]

EMO

MOODY

SAD

STRESS

HELPLESS

P.S Don't ask.I just want to be alone.Please.Leave me alone.

[小丑与我]

一袭花花绿绿的衣裳，
脸上涂满五颜六色的油彩，
嘴角总是挂着大大的笑容，
穿着鲜艳且色彩丰富；
那些不起眼的气球经过他的巧手，
都会变很特别。
他-----就是小丑叔叔。

那天，因为工作关系，
我接触了他。
我还记得，
小朋友们为了从他手中拿到气球，
都很乖耐心地排队。
小孩子们一副期待且稚气的脸庞，
无忧无虑的笑容，
是多么天真无邪。
拿到气球的那一刻，
他们的眼里闪烁着光芒，
嘴角微微扬起，
那是一种发自内心的笑容。

看着这一幕，
我的心里不禁感慨：
忘了有多久，
这种笑容不再出现在自己的脸。
原来，
我已经长大了，
我不再是那无忧无虑，
被父母呵护备至的小女孩。

看见队伍排得那么长，
小丑叔叔又忙了那么久，
脸上流露着一丝倦容，
于是我不忍心的问他：
“你需不需要休息一下？”
他却回答我说：
“小朋友们拿不到气球会很失望。”
说完，
他还是挤起笑容，
继续他手上的扭动动作，
制造出不同造型的气球。
其实，我知道他很累。

小丑叔叔的举动感染了我。
或许在现实生活中，
我们也在不知不觉中扮演着小丑的角色。
不管有多么不开心，
我们还是拼命地挤出一丝笑容，
就像小丑脸上被刻意描绘出来的笑容。
即使那并不是真心的，
因为我们都不想身边的人担心，
所以只好假装自己很开心。
即使有时候我们累了，
我们还是继续地撑下去，
纵使一切都不容易，
因为我们都不想让对我们寄予厚望的人失望。

小丑，
最善于隐藏自己，
把欢乐渲染给身边的每一个人。
小丑是我，
我是小丑。

《 ＡＣＣＡ ＬＩＦＥ 》

It's been a while since my last update of my blog.The reason is:-
1) I sent my comp for repair and i just get it back
2) I had my first progress test last 2 weeks
3) I don't have time
Whatever reason it is,please just IGNORE it.To be frankly,my laziness overtook my hardworking-ness thus resulting in proscrastination=p

Let's talk about my Sunway ACCA study life now.Well,I still can remember clearly that how I used to spend my1st day studying in Sunway College.On 6th of July,my brother accompanied mii to attend my first lesson which is F1 class that conducted by Mr.Bill simply because I scare to be alone.I remembered the scene that mii n my bro being locked outside the classroom cuz we're late for class after 10 mins break*wth*It's so embarrasing and we had caught the attention of the class.Some of my classmates even thought that we are COUPLE*LoL.Truth is being revealed after few days later*After Mr.Bill's class,I attended Mr.Tan's F2 class alone and my brother wait for mii at foyer for 3 hours.Hmmm..I felt so sorry and guilty for my Bro but he never blame mii for that.After finished class at 2.45pm,we went to sunway pyramid to have our lunch at Kim Gary and we watched Ice Age 3 3D movie.Again,I felt so guilty that I fell asleep in the cinema despite how funny the movie is.I just can't keep my eyes open because I didn't sleep the day b4 that.OMG! I wasted my bro's $$.Afterall,it was such a MEMORABLE day for mii=) Thankz gor for being so lovely & caring*onli valid till that day* XD

Now,it's already 1 1/2 months since my first class.Sometimes,I even couldn't recall how I used to burn the midnight oil on the day b4 progress test.ZOMG!Time always tend to pass so fast.But now I'm so happy since I've finished my first progress test.As u all know,I don't have any accounting background so I really need to study hard to understand it.The progress test driven mii crazily simply because it was my first test*wth*Hopefully I can pass all then I'll be happy.

Basically,studying in sunway college is quite interesting and fun even though ACCA is a boring course by itself.But my perception towards ACCA changed since I met a bunch of crazy ACCA students in my class.Some of them just like mii.We had no idea why we study ACCA and we just cant figure it out until now*SWT*According to Prof. Mattew(a weird yet a smart student from IMU that study ACCA to kill his time)our class is crazy,noisy and noutti.But who CARES?!They've made my ACCA study life so interesting that I never had b4 and my class is always full with laughter n joys because of them.Thanks ppl.I LOVE u all.

Tat's all bout my ACCA study life.

-Current status-Enjoy=)

P.S Some memories being deleted after comp reformat.I know it's no way to recover it even though it do upset mii for few days=( Perhaps it gives mii some hints that those memories shouldn't be kept despite how sweet it used to be.Past is the past*A reminder for myself*

[050709 20:20]

Without any prior notice,
you are standing in front of us.
Your presence surprise all of us.
Am I dreaming?
NO.I'm not.
Yes.You're here.
Standing right in front of us.
A real YOU.

没有任何的预兆，
你就这样出现在我们的面前。
你的出现，让我惊讶地说不出话来，
甚至不敢相信这一切是真的。
我是在做梦吗？
不，我没有在做梦，
这一切都是真的。
这是我期待已久的画面，
它，就这样活生生地浮现在我的眼前。
在这一刻050709 20：20，
我真的很开心，
我真的很久很久没有试过这样的开心，
一种发自内心真正的快乐。
基于传统，
我很努力地没让自己的眼泪流出来，
其实我感动地想哭出来。

当初你抱着一个“家”的理想，
就这样与我们分隔两地三年半。
辛苦的过程，我们无法体会。
对家的思念，我们无法了解。
哥，欢迎你回来，
回到属于你的地方，
属于你的家。
终于，我们可以坐在一起吃饭。
一餐最普通的饭，
对我来说却是最温馨最有意义的一顿饭。
多少年了？团圆饭独缺你。

地球表面上的距离，
把我们的距离拉远，
却把我们心的距离拉近。
你的归来，
对我来说是十分重要。
至少我知道，
我不再是一个人。
即使前面的路有多崎岖，
我都有你陪我一起走。
脆弱伤心的时候，
我都有你陪。
一个人的路，
走了好久好累。
从此以后，
我再也不需要一个人去面对挫折，
因为我有你，哥，
我学会坚强。

P.S 我最亲爱的哥哥，欢迎您回来。这一夜，我失眠了。是因为太开心抑或太紧张，我不晓的。

-050709 20：20*happiest moment*-

《 Finally 》

No more doubt.
No more hesitation.
No more comparison.
No more changes in my mind.
No regret.
From science to bussiness.
From pharm to ACCA.
Everything seems like so new to ME.
Yes.It's totally new to ME.
Instead I know nothing about ACCA.
Basically,I need to start all from 0,A-Z.
Am I too late?
No matter how I'll stick with the FINAL decision and I'll
really really STUDY HARD for it.
I know it's not easy at ALL.
Decision has been made.
There's no turning back.

First class at 8am but I've no idea why I still at py's hs.
At first we planning to go yum cha at 12am but ended up they ffk
and now I still waiting for the ffk-er come to pick mii up*grrr*
The time now is 2am.I really wonder can I manage to wake up at 7am.
Hmmm.
Finally,the ffk-er came at 2.07am and I reached home at 2.30am
Anyone know how soon is the SOON can be?
Let ME tell you the answer:
According to the ffk-er,the words S-O-O-N actually stands for one hour.
15 mins for each alphabet so ended up I've wait for 1 hour since I've been told it would be SOON*wth*
Summo the ffk-er suggested we go eat BAK KUH TEH on tues at 6.30am.
U guys better make sure it's really ON.IF NOT...
Haiz.Guys memang cannot be trusted.
U all really gOod in FFK.LoL.

P.S. 050709 20:20 =>this is my happiest moment.But so sad I can't tell now cuz I really gotta get myself into the bed.Class start at 8am.Stay tuned.I'll share my happiness in my next post*nitez*

[承诺]

承诺,
曾经轻易地被许下,
却也轻易地被忘掉。
那些被遗忘的承诺，
我只想一个人去完成。

P.S 其实，我也很累。

《ACCA? Pharm?》

I'm undecided.
My mind is keep on changing.
I'm hesitating.
My faith is shaking.
AGAIN...
I'm losing my grip.
I'm facing the same dilemma over and over again.
And now,I'm standing in the midst of T-junction,
still uncertain which route to take.
I'm freaking tired of it.
I hate this part of ME.

Registration fee has been paid for both courses.
Both courses commenced on the same day*wth*
But still there's no FINAL decision.
Sometimes I do feel like trying both so I know which suit me the best.
But somehow there's no trying.
Perhaps I should smuggles into the classes so I can have a "trial" for both courses.
Ahem.Normally first sem classes cant tell much so I should just smuggles into the 2nd sem classes.
Should I take the risk?
hmmm..Perhaps I should JUST DO IT for my own sake.

Recently,I've heard a lot of opinions about ACCA and pharm from different people.
Different people different view.
Comparisons have been made.
Overall,both courses has their own pros and cons.
But I've no idea why is it so hard for ME to make the decision.GOSH.
In the end,I knew it still depends on myself cuz I'm the one who decide my fate*stressed*
I don't want to choose the wrong path*I just want to go for the correct way*
I don't wan to regret in future*I just want to succeed in future*
It isn't fun when we need to decide our future and yet I've struggled for quite some time already.There's too many issues(time,money,interest,effort, career)that I need to put in consideration in order to make a wise decision.
All these driven mii crazily.

There's nothing easy in life.Neither pharmacy nor ACCA.

I knew I just need to choose 1 and study hard for it because I believe that
“Whenever there is a will there is a way”
I should bear in my mind and remind myself all the time.
Decide please.

P.S. credit to Jeng Nee thankz for ur brilliant idea*wink* shhhh~~keep it as a secret pls.

[我喜欢]

我喜欢现在的生活,
即使我很忙,
即使我很累,
即使我生病。

我很忙，
我不再有多余的时间想太多。
或许，偶尔会想起你，
那也只是在梦中。
现实，是残酷的，
梦，是美好的。
然而梦醒时分，
发现伤口依然存在，
只是它随着时间而结痂，
至少它不再那么疼了。

我很累，
不是因为上班的路途遥远，
而是我的心很累。
对感情的执着，
让我的心脏快要负荷不来。
于是我抽身离开那些带走我心跳的人。
如今我的心，
回到了属于它自己的世界，
它不再为了任何人而跳动，
它为了她自己而跳动。

我生病了，
伤风`咳嗽`喉咙痛`发烧一起来。
好久没生病了，
生病，一点都不好受。
还记得小时候，
我会希望自己生病，
因为生病了，
爸爸妈妈会特别照顾我。
即使没生病也会装病，
然后跟父母撒娇说：
“咪，我好像生病了，你摸摸我的额头。”
长大了，回想起会觉得好好笑，
但我真的怀念那种感觉。
或许，以前生病时，
总有个人会在我身边照顾我，
然而，现在生病时，
我学会照顾自己，
至少我懂得买药吃。
哈哈。
只是希望生病痊愈后，
不会变得很瘦，
我可是用了很长时间来操肥自己。
好不容易才肥了那么一点点。
43公斤的目标，
好象又离我远一点了。

P.S Currently I'm working at KLCC maxis centre as iPhone promoter.Do pay mii a visit if u guys goin to KLCC or any of u wanna buy iPhone.hehe.I'm enjoying working there cuz I can fulfill my free time & learn lots of thing.Most importantly,I can iPhone-ing everyday.haha.I really wish i could have one but it's too exp><

《忆》

曾经我想过放弃这个部落格，
因为这里有太多我伤心与快乐的回忆。
《忆》，是我成长与爱情的记忆体。
快乐的回忆太短暂,
伤心的回忆太多。
是我的执着,
让我一直游走在回忆里，
所以我不想再去触碰它，
惟有让时间冲淡一切。

感觉本来就是很抽象。
它，要来的时候，
我们无法抵挡；
它，要消逝的时候，
谁也留不住。
即使是再多的眼泪，
对于已经不爱你的人，
只是一种负担。
当爱情变成包袱，
或许它已经不是爱情。

当爱情的发展已难以回头，
却也无法往前走的时候，
放手，是唯一的选择。

一个月已经过去了，
所有的东西都已经过去了。
对与错`好与坏，
都已经不重要了，
亦无从去计较。
如果可以选择，
我只想保留那些开心的回忆。

爱情总让人折磨，
现在的我选择不去谈感情，
不是逃避，
而是想让自己沉淀下来,
学会去爱自己。
我相信，
除了爱情，
我可以拥有的东西还有很多吧？
只是我一直没有去寻找。

P.S 如果没有遇上你，我的人生是不是会有另一种际遇？如果给我重新选择，就算没有结果，我还是会选择爱上你，至少我没有后悔。

[What does ur burfday say bout u?]

November

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

P.S get this from fb.some are quite true.

《成长 . 蜕变》

2006

2007

20072007
2007200820082008200820082008200820082009

P.S 时间流逝，原来我们都长大了。我怀念以前的我，然而却无法找回最原始的自己。

[我们就到这]

做选择,被选择,
它，还是选择。
即使无从做选择,
我们还是得选择。

这感觉已经不对,
我最后才发现。
后知后觉，
原来爱情它走远了。

当爱情消逝的时候，
剩下的只有无奈，
即使心中有多么的不舍，
放手是唯一的选择。

对的错的
做了选择
故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻
要多久
才能够褪色

好的坏的
做了选择
我们就到这
纵然会难以割舍又能如何
说好了
这个时刻不互相指责

爱的恨的
做了选择
我们就到这
就让我曾爱过的记忆深刻
其他的（才能够褪色）
就此放手 微笑地带过

P.S 三个月甜蜜的回忆，或许只是一场甜蜜的梦。梦醒了，该放手了，谢谢曾经爱我的你。